Have you ever heard of the term "Hedgehog's Dilemma"?

Those of you that watched Neon Genesis Evangelion would probably know what I mean.

For those who don't however;

Picture a hedgehog or porcupine.

(k i know, its cute! ha!)

Basically, the idea is that when the hedgehogs, with sharp spines on their backs, will hurt each other if they get too close.

Hedgehog's Dilemma states that the closer two individuals come to each other, the more likely they are to hurt one another; however if they remain apart, they will each feel the pain of loneliness.


Hmm... Recently I've been suffering the very same dilemma.

Socializing ain't a strong attribute of mine, and the closer friends get to me, the more they suffer due to my erm... hmm... "tenacious" personality!

Ha! So I'm deciding to~ well abstain myself for awhile. Time to MIA once again!! ha...






Fact: Hedgehogs do not actually hurt each other when they get close, human beings tend to keep themselves more "on guard" in relationships and are more likely to sting one another in the way that a relaxed hedgehog would if spooked. When living in groups, hedgehogs often sleep close to each other.

I can’t stand stupid people!

No. Wait. I should use a tougher and better defined word.

I can’t stand INANE people!! (No, it’s not a spelling error, check your dictionary.)

I guess I should further explain my definition of inane.

1^st, I’m not stating that I am smart nor am I saying others are stupid. My inane is reserved for only a special group of people. The elite of the dumb I would say; sure intelligence has a part to play in it but for the most part it’s the personality.

These people are not only DUMB, but they are hard-up on whatever point they think others did wrong. Not only that, when people try to explain to them about what their queries was first about; they tend to write it off as EXCUSES, therefore bring it upon themselves to not only interrupt (rudely) but appear angry and frustrated about the “Excuses” their listening to.

Oddly, when it seems most prudent to stay calm and hear them gabble away while snickering inwardly at their pathetic attempt at showmanship, I tend to lose my patience and get seriously annoyed. Why? I guess it’s just a weakness of mine.

Some pointers that I think people should take note, if you’re in RP.

First: Ask a question, but be ready to LISTEN for the answer.

Second: Ask a valid question, never be god-damned OBSTINATE about what you think is right.

Third: It’s laughable when the point that you’re fighting so HARD to bring through is WRONG. So never stick wholeheartedly to an “answer”; be Flexible.

Fourth: Never ever interrupt a person explaining your doubts.

Fifth: If you do interrupt, be sure that your point is definite and absolute; to not seem well, inane.

Yawn…

Masks.. I'm sure every1 has them... Every1 wears them.

Some probably has lesser of a collection than most.

Every1 treats people around them differently according to different criteria they live by, or different situations, no?

Me, I keep masks more than most.. Me, I disappoint others more than most.. Me, I fear I lose myself to myself.

After all, isn't the greatest lies told when you start believing in them?

Therefore, the fear of a Master of Disguise is to lose himself to his disguise.

I'm not sure I truly understand what I'm trying to convey here... Maybe you readers will get it more than I do.

Read more about what I did tonight at www.zanfart.blogspot.com NOW! :D

I figured, most people when feeling lonely and sad will normally seek company from others. Thinking back, the feeling of sorrow and loneliness is not unknown to me however; I seldom seek company from others, in fact, I normally close myself off totally instead.

I can never picture myself confiding in another person.

One: The other person probably would never care anyway.
Two: The act of opening myself to another person about my personal stuff is ALIEN to me.


Occasionally I do indulge myself in the fantasy that I can sit beside a specific other, leaning onto that person and take in everything in that magical moment.. Then again, that's a fantasy!

Other times, when fates allow; I chance upon people that actually deem me worthy enough to share a part of their lives with, to that I am grateful and revel in their trust, however sometimes all I just want to do is throw myself at them on their darkest hour, hug them and comfort them. Yet, I can't bring myself to do that, in respect to not invading in their private space.

I still struggle, wondering if that's so wrong, or if I'm doing the right thing.


Struggle.

kae! 2nd blog is OUT!!!!!

go to: zanfart.blogspot.com

i'm sure you caught the wit in that URL.. but for those that didnt...

zanfar ---> zanFART

FART!!! gah~ k, lame i know, still fun nontheless :D


so for people that are interested in funny weird stuffs --> zanfart.blogspot.com

for people interested inthoughts from sappy ole' me --> zanfar.blogspot.com


lets start anew.. gah!!

About my blog..

It seems the people that read this blog can be classified into 2 groups.



1: Those that read for the fun stuff, classic, gross, soulfull and funny gags.

2: Those that wanna read up more about me.




So! I decided to open a 2nd blog, 1 for the well... 1! and this will be for ... 2!



Ta mou shi na~

So, yea school days are drawing near again and my school contacts has also started to come back to life again~

but then.... I'm still living in denial that the holidays are ending!

gimme some time to mourn :(

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k enuff mourning~ BTW i took up consumer psychology instead of the "packaged" deal cause it thought its interesting to know/research on what my target customers.. blah blah blah...

u get the idea.

PS: don't ask just watch.. NC16 btw!

HOLY SHIT!!!


ps: I know I haven't been updating up much about myself ~ that'll happen when I get over the hols~ aha!

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PS: LoL~

Right... So I thought I'd blog about something Kiddish for a change. (or as always...)

NARUTO IS BAAAACCKK!!! Shi-puuden~

It's liek.. totally AWESOME?

So worth the long wait of fillers (sif!)

Anywaay, imma post something interesting next, look out for it ;)


Food for thought: Crap.

Food for thought: LOL!!!

I'm fooling with the new and thrashing with the old!

This my new customised layout... Tho there's still some crazy going-ons with my stereo section.. I'll have that work out soon enuff!!

Ah yes! I have a new email add going on, (since most of you know that my jimmy_ajj has exactly 627 mails UNREAD atm...) so do plz add a-zanfar@hotmail.com to your msn! thanks thanks~

Ah.. And I'm starting a friendster (-.-), cause some1 requested... not that any1 will add me anyway (prediction..) AHA!

PS: plx add me xD :P

ArrRrhhhh!!!

Well, I'm not sure how many people out there has been waiting for this post... UGLY BETTY is OUT!!!!!

Yes yes.. I'm talking about the raging new series that's taking over the lappies of my friends - "Ugly Betty"!!

Episode 14 is OUT!!! N yes, I got it -.-"

I'll be expecting requests on M-O-N-D-A-Y.



PS: While good-mood lasts!

Little Mary was not the best student in Sunday school. Usually she slept through the class.

One day the teacher called on her while she was napping, "Tell me, Mary, who created the universe?"

When Mary didn't stir, little Johnny, an altruistic boy seated in the chair behind her, took a pin and jabbed her in the rear.

"God Almighty !" shouted Mary.

The teacher said, "Very good!" and Mary fell back to sleep.

A while later the teacher asked Mary, "Who is our Lord and Savior?", but Mary didn't even stir from her slumber.

Once again, Johnny came to the rescue and stuck her again.

"Jesus Christ!" shouted Mary.

The teacher said, "Very good!" and Mary fell back to sleep.

Then the teacher asked Mary a third question, "What did Eve say to Adam after she had her twenty-third child?"

Again, Johnny jabbed her with the pin. This time Mary jumped up and shouted, "If you stick that damn thing in me one more time, I'll break it in half!"

I need a new jacket/windbreaker...

Yet sadly I'm outta cash! ARG..!!


Reason why I HATE taking the bus...



















PS: Need people to buy jacket with... (why? cause I'm a total retard at shopping...)

Right!! Instead of CLOSING my blog... (cause i was just sooo sick of the old skin~)

Heres the NEW & RE-Vamped ZANFAR'S BLOG !!!! *roar*

aha!

comments much APPRECIATED!!

ps: new song as well (song of the heart!), so CRANK up your bass and listen to that drumbeat!!

Kz, found these off the net, wont name who, wont name what! (if you wanna know, ask me personally!)





















if you think thats awesome... check the next one!






















(and you wonder why there are gays?)

Crazy stuff. Things have really gotten downhill for meat some times.

Quote. "oh my. break ups and quarrels. everyone around me just seem so sad. especially those yummu yum yum girls. Hmmmm. don mistaken me. I have no desire to get them into my stomach. But the chicks out there are sad. oh well, what to do, thats life. my only hope now is to get a gf, alrighty, perhaps i will try not to be a jerk, and have models for my gf. heh heh. someone normal would do. lookable, likable, good character, i wonder where can i find one."

This post by some1 just kept stuck hard in my memory. Well, well.. I wonder what it means..

Meh.. girls, guys.. What I care, ne way..

ps: sick of it all.

Double PS:

Bring you own toilet paper!