I figured, most people when feeling lonely and sad will normally seek company from others. Thinking back, the feeling of sorrow and loneliness is not unknown to me however; I seldom seek company from others, in fact, I normally close myself off totally instead.

I can never picture myself confiding in another person.

One: The other person probably would never care anyway.
Two: The act of opening myself to another person about my personal stuff is ALIEN to me.


Occasionally I do indulge myself in the fantasy that I can sit beside a specific other, leaning onto that person and take in everything in that magical moment.. Then again, that's a fantasy!

Other times, when fates allow; I chance upon people that actually deem me worthy enough to share a part of their lives with, to that I am grateful and revel in their trust, however sometimes all I just want to do is throw myself at them on their darkest hour, hug them and comfort them. Yet, I can't bring myself to do that, in respect to not invading in their private space.

I still struggle, wondering if that's so wrong, or if I'm doing the right thing.


Struggle.